I missed the happenings. Sorry I was super busy last 2013. I want to catch up!!!
It’s been a year. Wow. Haven’t posted anything about my college life. Everything was new. Everything was bliss. Although sometimes it was hard and tiring. I took up BSBA - Internal Auditing leading to Accountancy. It was hard yet worth it. Every bits of blood and sweat, it was all worth it.
Currently on my 2nd year. So far, so good. I want to keep it up.
When anxiety attacks all thoughts burst. Pain was felt and tears are starting to run. Is he worth crying for? Is it worth fighting? Is he worth it? And suddenly you feel nothing.
i have lots of catching up to do, wala pa pala akong post tungkol sa buhay ko nung college
Forever is real.
The only reason why people question its existence is because they thought that it is perfect. They thought that having a forever kind of love with someone is not having tears or nights of broken hearts. They thought that it is all about blue skies and rainbows, kisses and chocolates, dinner dates and cuddles. They expect everything to be fine all the time that when the time comes that they experience hardships, they let go easily, saying that forever is not real.
Forever is not something that you could just obtain in an instant. It is not something that you could install in your system and expect it to be there for as long as you want it to. It is something that you should enhance every waking day of your life. It is something that you should fight for, you should exert effort for, it is something that you should be willing to give your everything to just so you could achieve it. It is an everyday choice— to stay with someone in spite of all the differences, imperfections and hardships, to let someone in again and again even if you are experiencing a lot of pain, to love someone no matter how many exit passages you have seen.
Forever is giving someone the unlimited chances to love you and to hurt you at the same time. It is giving them the right to break your heart every time and even if they have damaged it for a lot of times, you still give it to them right after you fix it just because you have so much faith in them that they would never do it again. It is believing in someone that they would be there for you no matter what and that even if they have messed up for a lot of times, they will still try to be a better person for you, that even if they have left you for a million times, they will still find their way back to you.
Forever is real. It is attainable but it doesn’t come easy. It is something that you have to work for and it is something that you have to make happen.
Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan. Hindi ko alam kung makakaya ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong rason kung bakit nagkaganito. Pero alam ko malalagpasan ko din ‘to. Hindi nga lang madalian pero dadating din ako dun. Ang sakit sakit palang masaktan. Ang sakit sakit pala pag nawala na siya. Pag nawala na yung nakakapag pasaya sa buhay mo, nakakapagpakilig sayo, susuporta sayo, yung damay mo sa lahat ng problema. Nasanay ka na kasi na andyan siya eh, pero ngayon another sanayan naman pero this time… wala na siya.
Hindi ko ‘to makakalimutan kasi eto yung unang ‘real break up’ na pinagdaanan ko. Sobrang sakit sobra na….